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[Apr. 28th, 2006|03:42 pm]
Nick
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I haven’t really done anything substantial with my life. I’m usually juggling between work and boredom. I miss school. I wonder if my language writing skills have deteriorated. I know my spelling has. Now I just speak in fragments. And I can’t creatively construct a sentence, pity.
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While I’m glad I went to school right after high school, I was in no way prepared to select a career. Funny, the whole idea of a career is that you spend the rest of your life working in job that satisfies you spiritually and financially. How bogus is that. People work to survive. The job just ensures that you able to keep the lights on for another month. I have no clue how my parents managed on so little.
Now, sitting in the chair of this dead-in job, I wonder if I should have taken the easy way out and followed the flow of familial expectations. While being miserable working, at least I would be financially secure, whereas now, I’m miserable and poor. Independent and in-debt is now my lot in life; is there any feasible way to change it.
I can’t go immediately back to school I have to pay off my car. Working a full-time job, allows me to meet most my financial obligations, barely. I am not sure what I want to spend my time on.
That’s what’s it’s really about. What you spend your precious, valuable and limited time doing. When you die, what will the majority of your memories consist of? I would rather lead full life than a successful one.
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